For October 6, 2017.
If there is one word to describe this photo, it’s BLEAK.
I work too much. Period. It has taken me roughly 90 days to figure this out. From July to October I have worked every day with only 7 days off off in total. But of course that is expected with two steady jobs. The matter of fact is, I still don’t know what I want to do with my life? Perhaps I thought dedicating my life around work would fulfill my career ambitions. (Now I know why some people are workaholics). Being constantly focused on work has led me to neglect other aspects of my life. (Of what little life I have left when I’m not consumed by work). How did I ever come to this state? In my current reading, “Being Mortal”, I conclude, that as we age and “loose life” it’s the small daily tasks that give our life value rather than, our contribution to the world’s success.
A favourite bible passage of mine is, “I can do all things through Christ which strengrheneth me,” Phil 4:13 KJV. To be true, this verse is much easier to memorize than to put in practise. God gives me strength, I know that. I also believe it. Yet, I don’t have faith?
“Does anybody hear her? Can anybody see? Or does anybody even know she’s going down today? Under the shadow of our steeple. With all the lost and lonely people. Searching for the hope that’s tucked away in you and me. Does anybody here her. Can anybody see?” -Casting Crowns
I tell you, it’s been one of those days. Those days when you feel emotionally under the weather. Where your bed is tender and toasty, and your body is exhausted, and your mind is drained of all sensible thoughts. So you stay there, untouched with reality. And that’s exactly what I did.
Now I’ve sat for over 2 hours in a coffee shop writing out my feelings on my blog which, I confess, has been the most productive thing I’ve done all day while sitting on my bottom. Whether or not the the outcome of this is successful.
So I guess I’ll post this now and wait…..