I am sitting cross-legged on my bed pondering the dreaded future to come. Just think, a year and a half ago I had my whole life envisioned. But oh, how things have changed. It always does and always will continue to change. I am definitely not where I thought I would be today. I tend to overthink the future. Instead, I must ask myself, what can I do now at this moment in time??? Can I be a better person today, than who I was yesterday?
Who is really in control here? When it comes to my future endeavours I am taken over with constant worry that I must overcome by planning out my entire life. At times like these I feel the odds are stacked against me and I’m being restrained from all things in my favour. My power is limited and my fate lays within the opposing hand. Who’s hand? I watched a movie, not long ago, which used a famous quote to portray a powerful message, “No man is free who is not master of himself” -Epictetus. There’s a scene from the movie Young Victoria where she and Albert are playing chess while the others sit silent in the back-ground. Victoria,”Do you ever feel like a chess piece, yourself, in a game being played against your will?” Albert, “Do you?” Victoria,”Constantly”. It goes on but that is all I am going to quote right now. It’s quite frustrating when you don’t know who’s in control and your just rolling the die.
I am finished fighting with my worldly future! I give up, oh Lord! God, I give up! For Heaven is my predestined paradise! Then, as delicately as a butterfly lands on a flower, The Holy Spirit, puts a verse in heart saying, “For I know the plans for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a future and a hope” Jeremiah 29:11 NIV. I may not know exactly how my life goes but I can be re-assured with the truth from God’s word.
“Jesus Christ is the same yesterday, today, and forever” Hebrews 13:8 NIV. God doesn’t change, neither will his plans for me change.
Now don’t click out of this post just yet! I want to leave you with a short youtube video from this delightful lady I so happen to follow on youtube. She recently posted a new video which I think it fits so well with my post. I hope it will help you understand a little of what I am going through right now, and that it will be an encouragement to you as well.